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[replica model] • LUKE FON FABRE ([personal profile] fabrecation) wrote2011-05-01 11:46 pm

014 [Voice/Action]

[It's well into the night by the time Luke makes his way back to the apartment where he lives, a small bag with the belongings he brought with him being carried by his side. Unfortunately, it had rained while Luke was out there, so the mattress he brought along was ruined by the time he decided to head back. Thanks to the rain, his hair is also a mess, so he's not particularly happy.

He is, at least, much calmer than he was a few days ago. After his talk with Ion, Luke's had quite some time to think. Maybe he was being selfish... Maybe it would've been best to never know about any of it. But at the same time, he's glad to know. It feels like the wool's been pulled away from his eyes, and now he knows that he has to go back. Even if... he'd have to face Ion's death... there was still much to do. And here Luke thought everything was peaceful again...

He'd been thinking about the experiment, too. One that gave him a real life, a real family... He'd have to contact Paprika sometime. And how did Asch feel about it? Should he have stayed away? Well... There was only one way to find out.

That thought, though, makes him stop on the bridge by his community building. He has to wonder whether anyone else felt the way he did about some parts of the experiment... So, on a whim, he takes out his journal and pushes the voice option.]


Hey, does anyone else wish that some of that experiment was...

[Real? ...]

... Never mind, forget that. Uh... has... anyone gone camping before?

[... Stupid question. Luke shakes his head and shuts his journal with a light, frustrated little sound, then continues on his way to the apartment. If Asch was upset with him for that experiment, he'd soon find out about it.]
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[personal profile] dissonates 2011-05-02 08:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Stop thinking only about yourself, you idiot! It isn't just for your sake that we're doing this!

[Naive- he's always so damn naive. It's taking all of Asch's self control not to march right over there and slug him one. Or better yet, leave and continue to ignore his existence.

Why did he think they could share an apartment again, exactly?]
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[personal profile] dissonates 2011-05-03 08:05 am (UTC)(link)
You think you can make some sort of difference? People don't keep their memories of this place when they leave, and even if they do, someone's fate isn't so easy to change. Or would you rather save Ion and let Tear die?

[Her fonons were already contaminated, well before then- and with no cure, only medicine, her death was inevitable. The Fon Master's sacrifice was something to admire, not prevent- especially since without Tear's hymn, Van would never have been defeated, and Lorelei wouldn't have been set free. It was a noble thing to do, a death he could take pride in... at least he didn't die for no reason at all, like he did.

This is why it had been pointless to share anything with Luke- it's all or nothing, otherwise he wouldn't understand.]
Edited 2011-05-03 08:06 (UTC)
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[personal profile] dissonates 2011-05-04 07:24 pm (UTC)(link)
I guessed that. Your lack of self worth is so obvious is almost tangible. If you're still thinking that way, then you're no better than you were in Akzeriuth. [Thinking too much or too little of oneself- they're just two opposing extremes. It's pathetic and irritating and it pisses him off more and more any time it comes up. Is he really that thick-headed?]
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[personal profile] dissonates 2011-05-06 06:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Then prove it. Stop acting like a spoiled brat and think about going home where you're needed!

[Yeah, he just said that. Deal with it. And hopefully the distraction would stop him from thinking overmuch about the future, at least where he's concerned.]
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[personal profile] dissonates 2011-05-10 06:49 am (UTC)(link)
[Asch honestly doesn't want to answer that question; it's complicated, and the answer is both yes and no at the same time. He never really watched Luke change back home- over the course of his journey, he noticed things as they came, sure, but there was still that crippling belief that he wasn't worth anything, that he was just a replica, that he didn't belong at home. Such an absurd and extreme difference from the behaviour of before- the bratty, spoiled, ignorant little noble child who cried at death and couldn't take responsibilities for what was handed to him. So much of who Luke is, who he was back home, was a collection of extremes and idiotic beliefs.

Everything that enraged Asch.

And then after the Tower of Rem, after everything, he'd resigned himself to work with them, and... Luke had placed the last burden of their goals on his shoulders, expectantly, confidently. "We'll get you to Van," he'd said. Because he's the original, he's the stronger one. Because Luke can't do it, because he believes Asch can.

Never thinking he could be wrong- that Asch wasn't strong anymore, that he'd already lost most of his fonons, that his body was falling apart at the seams when no one was watching. How ironic, that they'd share the same fate like that, and neither knew what the other was experiencing.

"I'm not you!"

But then... he'd been so caught off guard that he couldn't do anything but lash out. To imagine Luke as becoming more than a replacement, a replica- it had scared him, threatened to ruin the calm he'd somehow found for himself when facing his own demise. If I die, there's another me who can take over. If I fall there's another me who will finish it. Relying on his replica and believing in another person, in Luke, were two very different things. He never wanted that.

And this isn't that Luke. This is the weak Luke, the inferior, the one who believes he's a worthless replica. Who has yet to acknowledge himself as a person.

Luke did change - he does, he will - but the changes he's gone through right now aren't the sort of changes anyone could admire or respect, especially not Asch. He's not there yet.

Asch is probably quiet for so long that it seems like he won't respond at all, but finally, very quietly, he does:]


You used to put yourself above everyone. Now you see yourself as beneath them. When you find some kind of balance between the two, I'll acknowledge you.

[It isn't much - and really, it isn't even an answer - but short of telling Luke his future, it's what he has to offer.]
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[personal profile] dissonates 2011-05-10 08:40 am (UTC)(link)
[Asch makes a noncommittal noise in response, shifting in his seat and reopening his journal. It seems as though Luke is at least giving it some thought, which means he's making progress. He won't hold his breath about it, but he'll take what he can get for now.]

You seem to have plenty of that in this place.

[Hell, even Asch seems to have been given extra time. And speaking of which, he needs to reschedule with Dist...

...bleh. Later, he'll think about it later.]