[This time Luke does look up, eyes flashing with fear and worry and his unshed tears, because he at least has an easier time holding those back.]

It's not you! It's... I think the worst of myself. That's why I didn't chase you, why I thought everyone was-... [He kneels down, gaze falling away again, hesitantly scoop the pendant out of the wet dirt.] So - maybe you're right. I really never think things through...

[He slowly wipes the dirt away with care - it's true, he never thinks. This reminded him of that, the whole fiasco with the portal reminded him of that. He's just an idiot.]