[Luke opens his eyes to think about Asch's answer. He's changed, he has - but that's not enough for Asch. Having too much confidence in himself wasn't enough, and not having any wasn't enough. Will he ever be acknowledged by Asch? Only when he reaches some kind of middle ground?
How will he ever come to that? Everyone at home would look at him with fear or pity; pity because so much has happened to him, so much has been flung at the poor replica who's too much of an idiot to learn; fear because he's different, a fake, a weapon. Everyone in Luceti treated him better, but no one could ever know what it was like to live knowing that you're a mere replacement. Not even that, but a temporary replacement, meant to be thrown away. Meant to kill thousands, then to die himself. Who could ever live with that? Who could ever be confident with that? Why couldn't Asch just...
But he... He wants to try. For Asch. For himself, too... For the people who believe in him. For Guy... who always wanted him to like himself again. It's not going to happen right away; Luke can't just fake confidence, lest Asch grows even more annoyed with him. But wouldn't it be so nice, to be confident in himself again? He already thinks that being a replica isn't so bad... What's one step further? Or several?
It'll be so hard... Yet he'd give anything to be able to stand by everyone else without thinking he doesn't deserve it.
He shuts his eyes again.]
I want to find it. Just... give me some time to do it, okay?
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How will he ever come to that? Everyone at home would look at him with fear or pity; pity because so much has happened to him, so much has been flung at the poor replica who's too much of an idiot to learn; fear because he's different, a fake, a weapon. Everyone in Luceti treated him better, but no one could ever know what it was like to live knowing that you're a mere replacement. Not even that, but a temporary replacement, meant to be thrown away. Meant to kill thousands, then to die himself. Who could ever live with that? Who could ever be confident with that? Why couldn't Asch just...
But he... He wants to try. For Asch. For himself, too... For the people who believe in him. For Guy... who always wanted him to like himself again. It's not going to happen right away; Luke can't just fake confidence, lest Asch grows even more annoyed with him. But wouldn't it be so nice, to be confident in himself again? He already thinks that being a replica isn't so bad... What's one step further? Or several?
It'll be so hard... Yet he'd give anything to be able to stand by everyone else without thinking he doesn't deserve it.
He shuts his eyes again.]
I want to find it. Just... give me some time to do it, okay?